Times are a changin... a new do' perhaps??

Okay, so I really do not know how these pictures are going to come up on here, but this are some of the cute asymetrical bob cuts that I have found. With graduation coming up, and just with all the changes I have gone through lately, I have really wanted to change my hair! (The cut that is) I just recently cut about 3 inches off my hair.. so shorter than my blog profile pic! I just wanted to get some opinions on what ya'll thought!! So please post your HONEST opinions on here! I didn't know where else to look for the asymetical bob look... I like jenny mccarthy's, but i would want it longer because I DEF want to back to be longer than hers is in the back. (I do not want it so short I feel like a boy) Now, I know my moms opinion will be to keep it long, so I have also posted a pic of Jessica Alba's hair! (Too bad we don't have a hairdresser to do our hair everyday ladies!) Anyways if ya'll could give me your opinions, that would be great!! Love you guys!

Wisdom teeth... I would rather keep my Wisdom!

As you might gather from my title, I am NOT excited about getting my wisdom teeth out. While I am thankful for great technology and all that jazz.. I would rather just keep my wisdom teeth in my mouth. (Without my teeth shifting, thank you very much!) I will be getting my wisdom teeth taken out on Friday.. and I am very, very nervous. I know, or I have been TOLD, that it really is no big deal, and although I trust my friends.. I am still very scared. I don't like not being in control, and I am def not in control of this! ha! (Can we say pride..)

Anyways, I just wanted to let you know all that I am officially nervous! I feel a little dumb about being so nervous about all this.. but I really just am! My sweet momma is coming in town to take care of me this weekend though! Thank you Lord for her!! :)

Well now I am off to study for dreaded linguistics... if you could please send a quick prayer up for me that I will not be anxious about this TINY procedure, I would be much obliged!! love you all, and thank you for loving the Hypochondriac that is myself!! ha ha :)

He's right, Hallelujah, He's right!

First of all.. I have so much to update everyone on, and it may not all be tonight JUST because (if we are being honest) I am soooo sleepy!! This school thing can be very exhausting... especially when the whole senior-itis thing has kicked in! ha ha :) ANYWHO... I bought the new Shane and Shane Cd this weekend (well, really pap gave me some moola and I bought it!) and can I just say YOU ALL need to go get it! It is sooo amazing! As are all thier Cds. I love all the songs, but the song that I am relating to the most is Embracing Accusation!! If you go The Village then you heard it this Sunday, sweet Micheal Bleeker sung it over us!

Here are the lyrics:
The father of lies
coming to steal, kill and destroy
all my hopes of being good enough
I hear him saying, "cursed are the ones who can't abide"
He's right, Hallelujah, He's right
The devil is preaching the song of the redeemed
That I am cursed and gone astray
I cannot gain salvation, embracing accusation
Could the father of lies being telling the truth of God to me tonight?
If the penality of sin is death, then death is mine
I hear him saying, "cursed are the ones who can't abide"
He's right, Hallelujah, He's right
The devil is preaching the song of the redeemed
That I am cursed and gone astray
I cannot gain salvation
Oh the devil is singing over me an age-old song... That I am cursed and gone astray.
Singing the first verse so conviently .. he's forgotten the refrain
JESUS SAVES.

Now.. if that does not put some pep in your step.. well I don't know what to tell you! I do not know how to explain to you how much I needed to hear this. I will go into detail, I am sure, in my next blog, but I have had a rough past couple of weeks, and I just really was at a point in which I really needed to hear this. The Lord is so good! I don't think any words can explain how good He is!! I had asked him for verses and just a word from him, and not only did I hear this song (and really listen to it while Bleeker was singing) but verses popped up in the background!! UMM thank you Jesus! You are AMAZING! Also, the message was exactly what I needed to hear! And then, I got to go to dinner with some of my favorite girls that are in my homegroup, and then we got to have an amazing time opening up and talking about the Lord and our junk in small group! Oh Thank you Jesus for my sweet friends, sweet fellowship, good days.. and the bad days, and most of all... YOU!!

happiness through the sorrow :)

Sadness and change. Two things that I am not particularly fond of. But, inevitably, something that we all must go through. I think those two things may sum up a lot of what I have been going through. Change- this time in my life has not been the easiest. (FOR SURE maybe the hardest) But it has also been the sweetest time. Literally, this is the FIRST time in my life that I have literally had to be founded in HIS word and that is the only way that I feel better. If I do not constantly stay in the Word all day, I am lost. I feel like no one wants me, and that I am never going to come out of this season of life. But, then, the Lord comforts me, and lets me see his graciousness! Oh, how sweet and tender our Lord is! He loves us so much, and forgives over and over again. My heart has been in such an overflow mode lately. There are many people that do not understand, and will probably not understand what I am going through fully. Broken relationships are so hard. First of all there is such a range of emotions that come with break-ups, or even other relationships that go through hard times.
I think about a lot of different things that I could possibly be going through.. and being sad over, and feel guilty. The Lord has blessed me beyond measure, yet I still mourn what is going on in my life right now. Which, I know to a certain degree, is normal and has to happen so that I may heal. But it is important that I do not get caught up in my sorrow, but instead find the healing that I need in the LORD and the LORD alone. This is just a weird stage in life. And don't you just love it when people are like, you are so young, you don't even know what is ahead of you.. or you are so young, you need to just chill out. Just because I am young, does not mean that I do not hurt, OR that I am taking it to some other "drama" degree because I am young. I feel as though people downplay the hurt because you are young, or think that I am just being dramatic. If anything, I am trying to do those things.
Sadness- It can hit at any point of the day. and i mean at ANY point of the day. The Lord has brought me to many realizations through my sadness however. He has been so gracious, and sweet to me in these times. Although I am going through such a hard time, I do not believe I would trade it for anything. But with this, such a range of emotions have come out. I do not think I am ever cried this much in my life. And not just little crying sprees (if you will) but I mean the kind of crying that makes your whole body tired. But the crying has not just been for me. I have this sensitivity thing. I am a sensitive person, but the kind of sensitivity I am talking about is being sensitive towards what others are feeling. I have cried out for several people lately, and they have been women. This world that we are in has made women think that they need to be something other than what they are. What I mean, is that women think that they constantly need to be doing something to "better" themselves. This covers an array of things: really anything that they think will cover up their imperfections. The world has also taught us to be the one that "chases" after the male, instead of him pursuing us. And there are many of us, that start doing this because we are lonely. I have been guilty of many things like this before, especially the whole trying to make myself feel better with buying clothes and such. But why do we do this? I think it is because we do not find our fulfillment in the Lord, and we go towards other things that will "make us feel better". When, in all actuality, they give us an even bigger complex than we already had. It is so easy to say, "Find your fulfillment in Christ!", it is a lot harder to actually dig in and do it though. But when you start the process, it is so sweet!! I am on a mission to do this... and the Lord is workin on me!
In him, WE FIND our REST.. in him, WE FIND OUR ALL!

The Lord is doing something in my life... I always say it would be great if he could beam down and give me the gameplan, but being as that is probably not going to happen... I must be patient! And find my all him!

I love you guys!!
Ash

Sweet Surrender

Therefore, behold, I will allure her and bring her into the wilderness, and speak tenderly to her. And there I will give her her vinyards and make the Valley of Anchor a door of hope. And there she shall answer as in the days of her youth, as at the time when she came out of the land of Egypt. And in that day, declares the Lord, you will call me 'My Husband', and no longer will you call me 'My Baal".
Hosea 2:14-16

For your husband is your maker, whose name is the Lord of Hosts, and your redeemer is the Holy one of Isreal, who is called the God of all earth. Isaiah 54:5

Both of these verses were given to me by friends that I admire. One is my dear friend Lesile, who has come to be one of those friendships that I truely cherish, and believe is straight from the Lord. The 2nd verse was given to me by my homegroup leader, Stephanie, who I am so excited that the Lord has put into my life! Right now I am going through one of the SWEETEST, yet HARDEST times I have gone through in my life. Although that sounds like it could possibly be a contradiction, the truth is is that is what the Lord does. Although at times I want to cry out and say 'Take me out of this place Lord!' (place being stage of life), I would not trade this hard time for anything in the world. Although it is hard, and I feel so lonley at times, I have come to the spot in life where the ONLY thing that brings me TRUE satisfaction is my SWEET JESUS! I mean honestly, I really realized this the past few days.... for some reason, the mornings are really hard for me, but as soon as I am able to get into the Word, my day turns around. It really is amazing... you notice things start changing, and I know that this is the Lord working on me. This morning I got to wake up and was just HAPPY!! Last night, my sweet friends Leslie and Abe took me out to dinner, and it was just a sweet time of fellowship. Then I got to stay the night with Miss. Les! Oh, how I love this girl! She loves the Lord so much, and just waking up in her apartment was amazing... it is such a Haven! (A little background... I used to live with Lesile, and she is just one of the most uplifting, encouraging people I have ever met, and I have missed living with her!)
Yesterday we were a sight to see... I met her at lunch at Starbucks, and I was crying.. she had a tension headache, so she was rubbing her forhead, then after I stopped crying, I rubbed her shoulders at Starbucks! ha! We looked like Goobers! But what I sweet thing to have a friend that I can let all my worries out to and not be worried about being judged!
This morning.. when driving to school, Les and I started talking about how I constantly apologize for everything. Now if you know me well at all, especially if you have hung out with me more than once, you know that I apologize for everything. I have even apologized for the day being rainy! ha! Which is ridiculous when I think about it. But last night, even though I was in the company of amazing friends, and feel completely comfortable, I kept apologizing and being afraid my presence was a bother. Me and Les discussed this, and I have decided that I would like to search why I do this, and really pray against this constant worry that I am annoying everyone! I have done this since highschool, so it make take a while to reverse.. but I will try! :)
Well, I need to finish getting ready for the day! I love you all... thank you for reading my thoughts!

Ashie

Oh Happy Weekend!!

Okay, so first of all, I have yet to figure out how to put these photos on the blog... at least I have not figured out how to put them where I want them, so sorry about that!

This weekend was a really great weekend!! I am excited because I got a new digital camera so now I can post some pictures on my blog!!

First of all let me introduce you to my puppy... Koo Joe
Yes.. he is oh so cute and looks like the fox from the fox and the hound!! he he, he is a pomeranian, and has a spunky little personality!!


Over the weekend I had lunch with my mimi!! I am so thankful for her! She has been an amazing source of strength for me during the past few months, well and my whole life!! She loves the Lord, and it is evident in every part of her life.. I am thankful for her example in my life!

My pap (who is pictured as well) has been out of town for two weeks, and just got back on Sunday! I saw him today, and of course took a quick pic of us! I was happy to see him, and glad he got back safe!

This weekend was the start of our homegroup for the Village! Its at DBU, which is oh so convient! I am so thankful for the girls that are in it, and I am so excited for the community that comes along with the home group! My leader, Stephanie, is amazing! I am so excited about what the Lord is going to do with our small group!

Tonight I had a coffee date/break/fun... with my friend Elise and Angela! We had a little photoshoot as well!

This weekend there was the prettiest sky, so I took a pic of that!! When I see things like that, it just reminds me of how majestic our amazing Lord is! I know it is no professional pic, but it was so pretty, I had just had to take it!!

I really wanted to post these pics.. I will write a more serious blog later!!
Love you guys oh so much!

My Prayer

I will run, I cannot walk.
I will sing when there is no song.
I will pray when there is no prayer.
I will listen when I cannot hear.

Sitting in the waiting room of silence.
Waiting for that still soft voice I know.
Offering my words up to the rooftops of your house,
hoping that this closet's where you are.

Lord, I know if you change my mind, you will change my heart in time.
Soveriegn Lord, this time is from you, so I sit in the waiting room of silence.. because it is all about you.

(some of the Shane Barnard Song from Psalms)

This is my prayer right now... and sums up how I am feeling! more to come later...

Heavy-hearted

Tonight I have a very full mind. I know we all do this.. you get all excited about getting into bed and laying your head on the pillow, only to find out when you crawl into bed you are restless and it is going to be a long night! Today was a great day... I needed a great day, and the Lord gave it to me! But sometimes nights get hard. I start thinking, and then I tend to focus on myself more than Christ and his perfect plan. Some things today were just made very clear to me, which is great, but sometimes this makes things hard. No one ever said things wouldn't be hard from time to time though. One thing I have learned through my situation is that God is so good. He is so good about so many things... he picks you up and holds you near when he knows you need it. He also allows you time to grow.. and sometimes lets you get to the point where your heart is overflowing, and you don't think you can take anymore, and lets you get a little bit past that.. and then comes to your rescue. The Lord is sufficient. I know I have yet to see what that really means, and although this time in my life has been hard, it is yet to be anything like something that is life-threatning. But, I have learned a lot of lessons through it. I have learned what it is to rely on God, and it is a whole different level of trust than I have ever been accustomed to. I am not good at it yet, but the Lord is teaching me everyday. He is slowly... or I am SLOW TO LEARN to take it day by day.

Today I came upon this verse, and I found it really encouraging.

Therefore the Lord wants to be gracious to you, and therefore he exalts himself to show mercy to you. For the Lord is a God of justice; blessed are all those who wait for him.
Isaiah 30:18

I honestly have no idea what the Lord has planned for my life. I know that HE has a plan though. It is really encouraging to know that he has had a plan for my life even before I was born. I am thankful that there is a plan.... even though I do not know what it is.

I got a new digital camera this past weekend, so I think I am going to play around with it tomorrow... so pictures to come!!! I love you all very much, thank you for listening...

Houston Trip.. and My VeRy FIrsT Concert!!

pretty sure I'm in love!! ha ha LIFEHOUSE

GOO GOO DOLLS

Me and AM DANCIN!

Thumbs up for my first concert!

Trying to be pretty!! colbie!! yah! She was great!

So this weekend (labor day weekend) me and one of my best friend's AMBER decided to take a trip to see my parentals in Spring, Texas. (Spring is located right outside Houston and the Woodlands) Come to find out.. Amber's parents were moving to Houston from Arizona this weekend!! We were excited because we knew we would see them as well! What was even more exciting was to find out they live about two streets over from my parents in the SAME neighborhood!! Such a small world!! :)

On the way down to Houston we HAD QUITE a trip. First off... we were hungry. So we decided to stop at a Subway by school on the way. ummm... walked in, waited in line, only to see that there was mold in the cheese and the meat looked not so fresh. So we decided to stop at a different Subway on the way. This particular Subway was not in a good part of town, and needless to say it took a really long time... and it was scary!! (I get scared easily, but it really was scary!!) Then, I was being a bit anxious, and in turn was not paying attention to how much gas we needed, and even though I heard Skittle (my car) beep that it needed more gas, I somehow ignored it. So we BARELY made it to the gas station. Then after pulling out of the gas station, we got pulled over. Evidently, one of my headlights was out. Then we started going to wrong way down 45... my fault... but don't worry, we finally made it here!! I WAS SO READY TO BE OUT OF THE CAR!! :)

Tonight we went to my FIRST EVER CONCERT! It was the Goo Goo Dolls (headlining) and it was so much fun!! I was in such a need of a fun girls night out, and this was PERFECT!! (Thank you Hai!!) Me and Amber had so much fun and we got to see Colbie Calliat, one of my new favorite singers! Yah!! Here are some pictures of our fun night!! :)