take a deep breathe.

there are times when you get a little side-tracked on what you are actually doing.  you look at the bad things that are happening, or have been happening, instead of looking at what you need to be looking at...or the things that are most important.  you think about the things that suck, the things that aren't going right, and the injustices that you feel are being put on you.  these are the days that i don't seem to really like, but ones in which I have been having constantly.  instead of looking that the reasons you are doing what you are doing, you look at every extenuating circumstance that has you going crazy at the moment.  when i think about how often i have been doing that lately versus just being there for my kids and putting the stress aside, it makes me a little sick, and a little sad.  why am i at the school i am at? is it to complain about how the district is imposing things on the teachers that i think is a little ridiculous...or is it to be there for the kid who just found out his mom has a couple of months to live?  am i there to complain about my work load, or am i there to see what huge strides these babies are making in a life they don't always know is worth living?  am i there to take it out on my kids that i can't get everything organized, or am i there to show that kiddo that does not have much love at home some love??

things to think about, huh?  i am thinking...and reevaluating.