Realization.

Something dawned on me this past week. I like where my life is at right now. I love my job, my friends, my relationship with my Sweet Jesus, my church, and my apartment. I love my red furniture and my robin-egg blue plates. I like that I can rearrange my furniture without consulting anyone to see if that will upset them, or that I can leave a cup out on the table and it not bother anyone. I am content. (Do you know how wonderful that feels to say that!?!?!!!) Do I want some things in the future that I may not have yet? Very much so. But, they are far from defining me. Do I have a lot of growth to do?! Ummm, that would be a big YES. The Lord has been above and beyond gracious to me this year though and has let me grow in crazy ways I honestly did not know would be possible. I feel as though He has something in the works for my life that I will be so very giddy about in the future, but in the meantime, He has me right where He wants me. Do I get lonely sometimes? Of course... I think every single 25 year-old woman might tell you that they get lonely time to time when they see that cute couple who can't stop staring at one another. However, this week I was reminded over and over again by the Lord how I was okay and how He has finally brought me in this season where I am content. It does not mean that things don't bother me, or I don't get down from time to time, but I know I am okay. I know that my relationship status does not define where I may have allowed it to in the past. I also know that there is no rushing God's timing no matter how much I may TRY to do so. So, as I sit here tonight typing on my school-issued MacBook, watching all sorts of girly television and drinking my sweet tea, I am thankful. No use in pushing God's timing even if that is all I have ever tried to do in my life. I am ever so thankful He has a plan for my life that I have yet to see or live out. Praise be to Him who loves this goofy, sometimes dramatic, type A, perfectionist yet messy girl and that He knows my heart better than anyone and still loves me. And here is to being content in this single season as long as he calls me to it.